Thursday, September 27, 2012

Are you willing to?

EH YO, WHATSUP! ^^

Hahahaha, if i was as lovable as you are :p
So, it's a Thursday today! Woke up early for work.
Well, apart from the ignorant, cold, tense rejection and stare; plus impatient upper hand, distributing magazine is so much better than distributing flyers :)
Encounter some friendly people too, that's the only good thing :x
Still at the end, it's the $$$$ that counts :D
Phew, but it's tiring :/

Sigh, why.
Feels as though it's not fair how much i care for you.
Not fair how much i take into account of things i don't want you to be worried about.

Apart from all the bad feelings i felt from you, comparing to those broken hearted, feels as though i'm already very bless with you still with me.

"It takes time to realise how important someone is. And by that time, they're already gone."
"Why aren't people cherishing their partners but yet doing things that would make them feel like they're at fault?"
"It takes time to really move on because the love is just too difficult to forget.."
"I hope you knew that I actually realised how much you meant to me after you've left my side."
To know things are too late to be mend.
To know you have to live on with that regret.
To know everywhere you go, reminds you of that person and it hurts to even remember.

"It turns out leaving you doesn't make things better but ended up missing you even more."
It doesn't. 
Been there before, instead it just makes everything clearer.
Still, no point. Things still hurts.

Sigh sorry, just a little too paranoid.
Too easily hurt, too easily upset.
I can't control what i don't wanna feel.
Scold me, curse me in your heart, it's okay. But please never forget i love you.
Sleep well, that's the only thing you go do, to ease the pain for me.


我不知道,也不想知道,因为知道了,也只是伤到自己。
能给的我都全给了,我都舍得,除了让你知道我心如刀割。

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Things that will always be there.

Pictures that brings back memories.
Pictures that broke people's heart.

I know you saw those pictures long time ago, saw what you post on all the social network i can get access to.
And believe me, i know how you feel.
Was actually waiting for you to say something then, like scold me, tell me, anything?
But you didn't.
Makes me feel as though my reaction very redundant, like i'm just being silly for being like that.
As though i shouldn't feel like that since it didn't affect you.
But soon after that i realise, no, you just hide everything from me because you thought it will affect us.

I tried.
I tried my best to do what i can to not affect you ah baby, but i guess i can't totally do that.

Someone once told me, this isn't how relationship works.

Didn't say much because i thought it's okay to not.
Totally forgotten about it until you bought it out today.
Sigh, why. :/

Hate how you continue our conversation after that..
Just wanna talk to you properly but feel as though you don't want to.
From past experience, realise everything i'm gonna say won't work and apologizing will only make it turn out more worse.
Well but i can't stop bringing up the past. :/
It's just, i once thought because of what you did in the past, it's okay things are like that.
Already bad enough that it happened so often in the past.
Maybe, i just wanted you to feel what i felt.
Well, once thought it wouldn't even affect you..

Whatever it is, it don't mean anything.
Really and you should know :/
well, just wanna say, i love you ah baby, just hope this won't affect us.. 
Would be very angry if it did ah. Seriously.

Even if it hurts hundred times then, i just don't wanna go by the days knowing you regret and you ain't happy. At least i get to say you owe me hell lot more than you know.