Just give me a reason.

Just when you tried, and when that answer disappoint you.

Just when you realise, that person never did tried. 

Just when all the walls you built, because of that little disappointment it's all crumpling down. 

Just when you realise things never did change, when you realise how it still hurts to be disappointed. 

Just when you realise, what you have been avoiding, still matters. 

Just when you realise, you have to stop all over again, to stop thinking about it. 

What to do forget? 

What to do to not remember? 

What to do to stop feeling that way? 

What it takes to actually really move on. 

To actually still wanna know how's that person is doing, how you always wanted to know whether that person is fine. 

It's frustrating, when there's no distraction, that's all you can think about. 

Sucks to know how that person is moving on just fine without you. 

想念。

想念；

想念你，
想念你的全部。

但。

爱。

爱，是不会痛苦的。
但为什么就因为爱而哭了那么多次？
为了爱付出了怎么多，但最终还是分手。
所以爱有什么意义？

开心也是一天，不开心也是一天。
但有时就是忍不住，眼泪就是留个不停。
一直都还以为如果有了爱，什么都行。自己如果愿意付出，对方也自然会。
在感情上，当末个对方如果付出了，那个人就必须一直付出。
如果爱，我愿意为了你什么都做。
每次我生气，就需要那一个小小的拥抱就够了。
就为了看到你，每次就傻傻的希望，傻傻的等待。
但每一次的等待，每一次的失望，总有一天会累，就觉得在也不值得。
一个人默默的在付出，一个人一厢情愿的想法。
我累了，哭也哭到累了，说也说到累了，想也想到累了。
现在我为你做的还是不够让你珍惜我，那什么都没有必要了。
但，自己伤心就够了，如果没有了我你会更快乐，那最好

如果有这么一天我不见了，我希望你所选择的和我所付出的一切是值得的。也希望你能快乐

16th.

Guess there's no significant meaning to this dates anymore.

Over the years, being with you i know i will have to bear with all the things which i know i couldn't have, things which i know you couldn't give me, or even things which i know you wanna give, but can't.

All those things i thought it's possible to have; 

to have pictures of us being used by you as wallpapers, though i know i may sounds childish but that's what couples do right?

to even have you talked bout' me for a little bit, 

to have people whom you know acknowledge me, 

to be the person they first thought about when they think of you. 

But everyday, i only wished if i can get a little more back from you.

We're fighting for the reason you're happy. What does that even say about me?

Why even want me back when you're already happy?

Would you want me back if i tell you i hate the reason you're happy?

I could have accept it if it's reasonable, but towards what you're doing, how could i?

Though sometimes it really hits me hard when i know it's actually the things you're happy with,

But what about me?

I'm hurting and you actually tell me what's the point of even hurting?

How could you even say that?

Throughout these 3 years,

I love you and I never did left.

But now, i really don't know what to do anymore..

If you're really happy right now, even without me, why not just go? 

I can't even bear myself to even walk away anymore after these 3 years, even it hurts now to even stay, but i can't do it. 

I just wanna be happy, i don't wanna have to worry about everyday, afraid to be hurt.

I don't want to start all over again like we used to be.

It just happened so many times till i'm actually sick and tired of it. 

We were fighting all the time. It just got really hard every time.

Perhaps the only thing now left to do is..

To hang on to each other, till one day.. someday..

Love will remember us.

love will remember.

There could have been many reasons we are still together right now.

"You are worthy of all of the love in the world, you are the love of my life."

You said you loved me,

I said I loved you back,

What happened to that?

All your promises,

And all them plans we had,

What happened to that?

Even if we try to forget,

Love will remember